Summer Reflections....

Sad things are happening at the Hake home this summer.  Some are self-induced, some are just part of growing up, but most, most are things that are making this momma's heart break just a little bit...

1. Summer classes are not nice. They strip you of your joy. They tease you with the promise of only being 8 weeks.  ONLY?  That's 8 weeks that you feel like you can't enjoy a day at the pool or a trip to the zoo because you must finish reading those 15 chapters you're behind…there are no nice words! 

2. My kids are not little anymore :-( Gone are the days when they would giggle and tip-toe into my room and slide into bed next to me, thinking I didn't hear a sound….I would just roll over, gently place my arm around them and pretend I was still asleep. In years past, when the hubs was gone on many a missions trip, they would do this…often. They didn't once crawl into bed with me last week when he was gone the whole week to snuggle. That my friends, was a sad realization for me.

3. Every time I see my baby girl smile I get overwhelmed with pride, joy and the realization that the bubbly, joyful self inside of her is going to do AMAZING things someday!  The cruel people who don't understand her personality and who insist she is trouble….just you wait!  You have no idea the true beauty and tender heart that lie underneath that smile.  And that laugh!  She quite possibly has the cutest laugh you'll ever hear…so full of promise and joy and mischief…..lots and lots of mischief.  And just when you think she'll crack and that sweet, bubbly personality will break because the neighbor girls are mean….she just looks up and says, "that's okay mommy! It just means a girls night in with you!" And I enjoy every single moment with her…even though inside I'm plotting how to take down those mean bullies next door. :-(

4. My baby boy….who am I kidding!? He is my little man. He is hands down the best little man a momma could ask for.  He has his daddy's gentle temper, a sweet, sweet disposition that will knock a girl off her feet someday….but for now, it melts my heart every.single.day. He makes me breakfast in bed because he wants to.  He opens doors, he looks for the elderly person to give a seat to, he buys toffee with chocolate and nuts because he knows how much his momma loves it!  He kisses and hugs and rubs his hands up and down your arm to signal he needs extra love that day. He is growing up so fast, and while he would stop and kiss and hold me if I asked him to, there are so many times a day I wish he was that baby that would never, I mean NEVER let me put him down….because I miss those days. I miss those snuggles.